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Friday, June 09, 2006

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 22:26:17 GMT

my heart is breakin...

i can't slp for the whole nite, sry that i promise rebecca i will go bak to slp after we hang up, but i really can't~ my teat juz won't stop, i'm afriad that actually i'm not that strong, i can't handle everythin, this is juz too much for me
i really get hurt this time, i hav never been in this situation b4, can somebody help me, i 'm lost, i'm really lost... rebecca ar : ngor dim suen ho ar? ngor ho sun fu ar, ngor ng xuen hei gum ar, ngor ng xuen....
it's that wrong to hav wish? is that wrong to believe a guy i lov? is that wrong to keep callin someone i lov? is that wrong to lov someone? is that wrong to meet the guy u will lov? if this is all wrong, then i'm really wrong!!!

Friday, June 09, 2006

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 10:13:24 GMT

y is that always my fault? wt did i do??
btw, hav been talkin to rebecca these days~
recieve my mum call this afternoon, she said we havb to prove my dad is comin to auckland, cuz they can't find any homestay, i was lik wtf??
then u call n tell me that someone else is gonna stay in our house for lik 5 nite, do u think i can tak that? wtever~ n u tellin me not to call u again, thank you for sayin that!!!
btw, rebecca is helpin to find homestay for me, no matter i will go to auckland this term break, there's no way that i will stay here again, i get enou in blenheim!!
n argue with my mum, my mum said how abou she com over, i really dun want her to waste money to com over juz cuz of i want to go to auckland~ but it's fine rite now, cuz she know wt i want, n"i'm sry abou my attitude on the phone with u" ==> to my mum!!!

rob is havin exam tmr, hope he will do go on it, i will always support u!!! kk

Monday, June 05, 2006

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 09:45:43 GMT

it wasn't a gd long weekend for me.... i hurt my month last nite cuz i was doin some sort of stupid stuff n it look really awful... i dun think i sure tak pic of it cuz obvious i dun think there's anyone wanna look at it~
then i woke up this mornin, juz get a pack of noodles n walkin on the stair, remeber i was walkin but then i fall... omg n that was lik my second time fall on the stair this weekend, the first time was at nite when i went outside for a smk~ gd? wt's wrong with me?
n thank you for tellin me i only know how to eat n slp, cuz be honest, that's my life!! haha
was talkin on msn with charity, havn't talk to her for a long time, nways that was a nice chat, hope to c u in christmas time n go out for some shoppin
did some of my speech, but then giv up cuz needa eat din din, but i was so full but it was really nice, Bill can cook btw he is leavin tmr~ heehee
princess dairy was on 7:30pm on channel 3, it was gd but kinda miss out cuz i was talkin on the phone with lo gon~ heehee
it's already 10:45 , still hav 75 mins to go til u get off from work~
n plz dun be sry for makin me cry last nite, cuz that was my fault n i'm fine rite now~
really wanna go bak rite now, missin the day while i was in hk, n plz all my fds plz go bak to hk in christmas , really wanna c u guys so badly~~ muah!!
especially u lor, my bitch ( u know who u are) haha n thx for the comment~

Saturday, June 03, 2006

Sat, 03 Jun 2006 16:15:05 GMT

all the things in my head tonite is " break up " n " break up" ~
while everybody treat me so gd, then u will always do sth lik this~

i start to think "i dun hav to slp with u everynite?i can find a way out...!!"
eventhou i hav to try for thousand times,n i wok up million times at nite , i think abou u more than thinkin abou myself~ keep checkin did i miss out a call!!
although i'm doin all this but i dun hav any extra energy to call u, i juz hav enou with u, enou with yr attitude , enou with yr emotion~ i need a break after all

i dun even know am i doin a rite thing, but that was on mind for the whole nite

conclusion: i start to hate you n myself

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 10:41:20 GMT

havn't updat my xanga for a long time lu~ so many tests this week... studyin everynite n in skl time too~
didn't wage much class this week.. bein a gd girl lor~
so happy to recieve lo gon's letter n mum's mail box~heehee..XO sause is the best!!!
two more tests to go tmr( biology n chem )... heehee... then i hav a long weekend la cuz it's queen's birthday on monday... no school!!! yeah yeah!!!
vivian didn't go to today, properly those important day gwa~ haha
cook some rice for tmr already, but juz prepare mine one n kenness one, cuz dunno is vivian gonna go to skl or not~ heehee

Friday, May 26, 2006

Fri, 26 May 2006 10:47:01 GMT

finally finish buildin up my hello kitty~ omg it look so nice!!

hav been so sick these days... thank you for lo gon stayin at home with me, eventhou i know that u didn't do that all for me, but still thx for that~
went to town n brought the presents for shinobu, now start makin the card for her~
waitin for lo gon to go home, then we will cam cam la~

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Sun, 14 May 2006 06:18:42 GMT

diu~ ho on 9 lor~
last friday formal then after party
gum the week after dou hei skip n skip lor
friday nite went to vivian's hse n da bin lo, saturday chow went to watch movie n poppy tai then puke lor
ho sick lor but still hav to study for bio~ so fuk up

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Tue, 02 May 2006 08:14:42 GMT

ho mad r today~ wait until 4 last nite, doesn't hav a gd slp at all! guys suk!!!

rainny day today... such in a hurry today when i go to skl, but then kenness sent me a msg sayin that she dun wanna go on the first period, so she hav stole the orange sheet so that we got excuse to went out from class... then we hav all went out for a smk~

same as usual... went to smk when i hav esol!.. then vivian doesn't hav to stay in skl anymore, then she hav left! me n kenness mei go to detension lor... well...i'm so sure that i only hav one detension, n i suppose can leave in the half way of detension, but then mrs hammod said on her list, i got lik 14 detentions... wtf?? n she dun let me go.... then i went bak to fiance office n check, i'm only hav one, that's i did a extra one~

i hav phy last, me n stacy were keep talkin, so the teacher ask us to leave the classroom, ho embrassin r!! stacy heard that he ask us to go M6, but then he actually said S6, so it was more embrassin!! so fuk up~

then meet up with kenness in out " gai day" after skl... went to innes hse n get the movie, then went to springland to buy the vodafone n kiaora card n some sauce... cuz plannin to cook the chicken when i get home~

spendin so much time on cookin, n gettin really tired from last nite, n juz wanna go to slp asap, but then yau wanna watch the movie wow... then mai watch jor one disc chow went to bed lor~

jai call me n tell me that he is sry abou last nite, but it's hard to forgiv him, still really mad at him, n specially he told me that he got a part time job, that's mean he won't hav much time with me anymore, he said it's cuz he want to mak me happy when i com bak, but did he think abou i won't be happy rite now, he will be so tired everyday, n specially he won't even hav time to spend with me anymore ~ so sad!!

wok up abou 9, go downstair get a drink, juz relize where is the chicken, cuz the chicken are not suppose to put in the fedge, n someone put it there, wtf? who did that, n some of the chicken r even missin!!! fukin helen... i relaly hate her... can't wait til tmr when she leave... dun wanna c her anymore, she ate the chicken without askin... she said that she actually dun eat meat? then wt is this???/

wanna chill myself, so juz went out n hav a smk, when i cam bak to the hse, she keep talkin to me, i juz wanna tell her " can u plz fuk off???"

went bak to my room rite now, gonna pop into bed soon, cuz i 'm really slpy~~ can't stay up late anymore!!

Monday, May 01, 2006

Mon, 01 May 2006 09:34:59 GMT

first day of the second term.... first period then start to think when r we gonna wage..

still rmb i did sth so shit the end of last term? i stole the math test, so i hav to re-do it today, haha... vivian even help me to do it... wt a fuker i'm, haha...

the first period, we got esol... we watchin a movie call" piano lesson" that is some kind of full of art taste, lik an "artistic accomplishment" gei movie lor~haha

after international assembly, call wakas to get out, cuz dun want him to get late to work!!

the seond period then we all went to smk...me n vivian told kennese wt did we did in esol class today... then she told us that is not an " actisitic accomplishment 's movie, it's a " Love literary and artistic creation's movie " wow... wtf??

kenness told us abou wt did she do in auckland, she know a new " fd" who is 22 yrs old so that she can help her to buy cigar wow... then she hav a hair cut, but it look so short, so me n vivian were keep talkin abou that.. then she said she hav told the hair dresser to cut it longer... " how r u suppose to cut it, but it will mak it longer?? " that was funny!!

after 2 cigar, someone seems comin toward us, but we r not sure who is it, cuz didn't wear glasses, but when we look closer, he is the new DP who taught me phy in the beginin of the yr... so fuk~ vivian only hide her cigar, n i hav lay on the ground n get it bak~

although get caugh by waggin, by think it's gonna be alright, cuz last time, mrs " " forget her name, the other DP caought us, we still fine, cuz she hav on;y given me n kennes one detension... lucky, vivan hav no detension again, cuz she is yr 13... fuk that
but me n kenness got lik 3 detension lor.... if i dun clear it out by friday, then i won't able to go to formal... so chemchem ><""

so i went to detension durin lunch time, but i suppose to do the math -test, but i though i can do it in class... after detension, went to the uniform store, they told me that they hav forget the skirt at home, so i hav to com bak on wednesday again... wtf?? i hav wait for the skirt for such a long time!!!

went to math class, she said i should com in the lunch titme, so she will think abou should her let me to do it again wow... fuk lor~ dou gai wry ga, 4 credits wow... but last she dou let me to re-do it again... lucky me~

then mrs wick sent a orange sheet n ask me to c her... she keep bababababa abou y do i went out with kennes n smk... babalala lor... then she said if i do it again, she will sent me bak to innese hse wow... wtf??

then normal get bak to class, then stay in innese hse for awhile, cuz need to ask kennness help me to buy vodafone, cuz first didn't bring any money n second dun even go n get it...

when i got home, kinda bore cuz no body is at home... so i start to cook... i cooked some spagettie n some chicken n vegertable... so yummy but so full.... then call bak wakas n hav a though cuz sincce he got a job, he kinda change.. but wt did he change? i dun even know but juz feel in this way, but it's gd that he is workin hard rite now!!

then fell to slp... til 10 , then went to hav a smk, then call him again, he told me that cherry didn't find him today but he is goin out for dinner with his fd who is leavin to UK tmr... hei yau d ng hui sum cuz he actually promise me that he won't go out at nite~ but he said he promise her like a month ago... but seriously, can i say no? i dun think i can.. cuz i really dun hav the rite to stop him, lik it's realy normal that go out with a fd who is leavin tmr is normal , rite? but i juz get so wry abou it... but wt can i do? n specially it's not even juz a fd , he is gonna with group of ppl, but i juz get so wry abou it, cuz i think he will know someone rite away... then he properly forget baou me again~ i think i wry so much, i do trust him, but i still always it will happen, i always imagine sth lik that~ i should go to the method doc or sth... cuz i dun seems alrite ~

wt can i do rite now? should i wait for him or juz pop bak to slp... cuz i'm really tired after a day that long n without enou slp for the past week... but i dun think i will able to slp again, cuz he is goin out... properly hav to tak some slpin pills again..but how many should i tak this time, cuz seem those pills doesn't seems workin for me... should i juz tak lik 6 or sth??? still waitin for vivian's slpin pills ... cuz hers one is definely work... cuz she can slp lik a pig last yr... haha

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 10:55:52 GMT

wok up abou 2 sth today, n the day seem to be bore already~ get a drink , then stay in my room talkin on the phone with mum, n some other fd gum la..

then kenness txt me n ask me to get her a pack of cigar wow, but too lazy really dun wanna go out ... so i said juz get it tmr...

went to bake some muffin... heehee... it taste reall gd, yummy!!
then watch " the last samurai " with shinubo... n helen said she will drive us to skl tmr, wt r gd news for me~ haha...yeah!!